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By Lana Moline
There are many wonderful things going on in our lives. From all accounts of praise reports via texts, facebook updates and our day-to-day interactions, it is obvious that God is blessing and we have all been recipients of His unmerited favor at one point or another. However, there is a little dance that many of us do that we simply must stop. No, I’m not talking about the macarena or the slide or whichever one happens at many wedding receptions. I am talking about the tango that we do with fear. We allow fear to hold us close and dip us ever so gently into a place where we forget that fear is jealous of potential.
Fear is slick because it touches the place in us where our vulnerabilities lie. It brings with it our favorite blanket, our comfort food and any thing that puts us in a state of mind that causes us to remain exactly where we are. It plays our favorite music and whispers things like “that’s just too hard don’t worry about trying” and “let someone else step up, that’s just too much work.” Yes, fear has game. It’s like a combination of Jordan, Shaq and Dwayne Wade with a fundamental wisdom, strength and vigor. In other words, it dominates if we let it and has no problem sitting on the bench for a minute because during that time, it studies our every move.
So now, I must say good riddance to fear and end this horrid affair that I have allowed for far too long. My joy is too important to just hand it over without a fight. My peace is a gift that my Heavenly Father promises to me if I simply ignore fear and focus on Him. For far too long I have opened the window for fear at night when everyone was sleeping and kept company when no one was looking but today I am turning the alarm system on before I go to bed and letting my true love have all of me. Be gone fear! You are not welcomed here. In fact, you are interrupting the trip to my orchestrated destiny designed by my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Last I checked I didn’t see your name on my itinerary. I saw the names ambition, courage and growth but nope – fear was not on the list. So I’m guessing you will need somewhere else to stay.
Truth is, we’ve been together for a while but things just aren’t working out for us. I can honestly say that I am not the person for you because what I want and what you want are just too different and I’m afraid we will never see eye to eye. Sure, we have had some moments where we’ve hidden under the cover but since that time my Heavenly Father has introduced me to a peculiar group who desires to put me on the fast track to a more integral position in the body of Christ and that offer is extremely more fulfilling and exciting. You must understand that this decision is not one that I have reached on a whim but rather years of feeling blah because of your presence. You are a thief, fear and I am putting in a 911 call and taking out a restraining order in case you think that this is a joke. I want all that God has for me.
Lana Moline is an integral part of the Blackloveandmarriage.com writing team, freelance writer and poet who lives in Ft. Worth with her three kids and husband Emile. Married 11 years, both media professionals have vowed to maintain integrity in all aspects of print and broadcast journalism.Visit her atLana Moline Speaks.