Somedays I Am Grateful….Somedays I Want More.

By Lana Moline

My friend Jo and I were talking about all the excess stuff we have that’s just sitting around. Separately, we both came to a decision not to purchase anything else until we used what we have. I don’t so much mind because my excess is with my body oils. Every time I visit The Big Easy I stock up on body oils from the French Market or from my absolute favorite spot on Dorgenois Street.

As I dabbed on a little Egyptian Musk one morning, I started thinking about excess in other areas, particularly my relationships. The thought exploded in my mind in a number of ways.  I wondered if I was making good on the promises I issue out and whether I show appreciation for the love I receive continually or do I simply demand more every time.  With Thanksgiving only a couple of days away I see the need for a resolution that begins and ends with simply being grateful for what I am blessed with right now.  Things have not always been easy.  In fact, I can admit to you that this year has been an absolutely bi-polar year where I have truly seen extreme highs and desert valley lows but as Antwone Fisher says “I’M STILL STANDING.  I’M STILL STRONG” and that is praise worthy in itself.

I am guilty of stock piling love.  Between all the hugs around my neck from little hands to the big ones that envelope my whole body, time and time again I receive love and find myself at a lost when it doesn’t come my way immediately or in a manner that I desire at that moment.  I’ve got to remember that everyone reaches out and gives differently and what I am realizing is that often times I am in possession of what I desire.

I am blessed each day as I awake to brand new grace and mercy and I am ever so grateful for being supplied with that “daily bread” that I pray for every night.  It amazes me that each day I am granted the strength and a measure of wisdom to complete that day’s journey and yet some days I still want more.  This is a humbling lesson for me and one that I won’t soon forget. I’ve come to see that ultimately by using what I already have, I will tap into an unlimited supply of provision. Thanksgiving is the key!

Lana Moline is a freelance writer and poet who lives in Ft. Worth with her three kids and husband Emile. Married 11 years, both media professionals have vowed to maintain integrity in all aspects of print and broadcast journalism.Visit her at

2 replies
  1. Tina J.
    Tina J. says:

    it's sooo important to have an attitude of gratitude. thank you for this post

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