Committed To Closing The Gap Between Where I Am And Where I Want To Be

By Neysa Ellery Taylor

A few years ago I wrote myself a very detailed letter of exactly what I wanted my life to be. I was specific. I wrote down how I would look, what my social life would be like, the status of my marriage, how my finances would be in order, etc. I was detailed. Tonight I read it and thought, “what happened? Why am I not that person on the paper?” Well, let’s see.. I think I can narrow it down to discipline, focus, and obedience.

Yeah, yeah. I could whine and moan and say that I’ve had some setbacks. That would be true. I’ve had some serious setbacks, roadblocks, hell, I’ve had mountains to climb. And I’ve scaled them. But when you are constantly playing defense sometimes you can forget that you have to put numbers on the board. I lost sight of that.

Seeing that letter reminded me of who I said I would be. Who I was to become. All of the things that I listed on that letter are still things that I want. I still want to be debt-free. I still want to have a career that I get up and love going to everyday. I want to travel more – much more. I want everything on that list.

So instead of writing about who I want to be and putting it in my journal, the Neysa 2.0 Manifesto (catchy name, huh?) is going on the bathroom mirror. I will be forced to look at it everyday so that I don’t forget the goal. I will work at closing the gap until I can introduce my present self to my best self.

Neysa Ellery Taylor is an integral part of the writing team here at Blackloveandmarriage.com. She lives in Nashville, Tennessee with her husband, Chris, and their 4 children – Asyen, Maya, Preston, and Patrick. An Emmy-Award winning journalist, she hopes to share her passion for marriage and God through her writing. You can read more of her work atMyriadthatisme.blogspot.com